Help Yourself, Help Others

Gürbüz Doğan Ekşioğlu is a Turkish artist/cartoonist. One of his paintings got my attention.

Most of the analyses that I’ve seen go by similar captions as, “They let you think they are helping!”.

But from what I see, the efforts of the man on top are sincere. The following discourse conveys my thoughts on the same (Narrated by the man on top):

I want to help my people, but am I good enough? If I’m going to help I’ve got to do my best.. So I rise higher hoping to help better.. On and on I go until I’ve reached the top.. but alas.. I guess I’ve travelled a little too far.. and no more can I reach the very people I wanted to help.. 

Shows how a person with all the good intentions will not be able to achieve what he wants to because of the miscalculation of the goal. The goal here was to help the man in the trench. But the person outside [with all the good intentions!] raised to the top thinking that he could help better.

This also reflects how people want develop and hence let go of their roots to grow further in life.. but after a time they can hardly recognise their own roots. They’re just too far. It’s too sad if you can relate to it.

As a remedy, people should always keep in mind where they want to go in their lives. It’s a common practice to set sub-goals to achieve the bigger ones, but one should not be engrossed in over-achieving them. It’s the main goal that matters and it’s the main goal that always mattered. In this case, if the man outside wanted to help the man from the better position, he should’ve realised that going higher might not actually get him closer to his goal. Ignorance is not innocence and hence cannot be accepted as a reason to over-shoot. He should have checked every once in a while about what he wants. In other words, one should re-discover oneself once in a while whenever one feels lost. Not as easy as saying I realise, but one should always strive. On an entirely different note, one shouldn’t give up because perfection is impossible to achieve, but must strive towards it. Perfection is like infinity. One can only do a lim(x->∞), limit x tending to infinity. [For those who wants to take a bite at it, I know we can have systems where perfection is possible. Finding the square root of 4? 2. Perfect. No better solution than that! LOL]

When we’re talking about re-discovering our life goals, an analogy strikes me of the agile software development (we may not limit to software alone actually. You should read about it sometime if you haven’t already). The other models of software development usually involves taking the requirements and delivering the solution by the end of the term. But agile development involves checking and rechecking what is required and refining the path to the goal. This makes sure that the developers are not in an assumption that they’re on the right track and neither would the customer. This would save a bitter surprise for both the parties. Like the surprise of both the parties in this painting. A bitter surprise.

Review: Narayana


This is what happens when you’re in Narayana!…
It’s been like…er… let’s see… my last post was in June. and now, its November!….
It just seem to be the half year. Feels like it’d been just yesterday that I have started my long term course!!
And no, Narayana ain’t so sadistic. There are a few exceptions(which none can escape!)…. like our principal!!..
What baffles me is how the time passes…. Six months seem like a week, while a closer look at a week would give a feeling of a month’s time!
Just that I’m not used to all the hustle. The first week!!!… I’m sure I wouldn’t have worked so in a month!!!
Apart from the time ambiguity, and the stuff the “princi guy”(yeah, that’s how I usually refer him to!!), says and DOES(!!!) everything else is going very well… and when I mean well, I really do mean it! 
Talking about my academics, I’ve finally found that I’m not dumb at all. Now that’s a huge boost to my self-image (reminds me of “The Frog and the Nightingale”, by Vikram Seth (if I’m right about the poet :!)!!!)
Initially I had a hard time competing with those who had their days spent in coaching centers the past two years.  But wait!!! I’m no ordinary person… within months I caught up the wind!!… though I’m still struggling, but not at the base. I’ve still got many weak points. And obviously, this course I’ve taken up IS TO resolve them.
Now, talking about the time I spent there, they were horrible!!! Horribly good!!! I like this place only for it helped me find myself. Like a lotus enchanting the marsh!!! Obviously I’m exaggerating! The worst part, you can’t wear anything except FULL PANTS. Now that’s real craziness.
People I’ve found are good. Again, except the princi guy!.. there are some things to know about him. He SUCKS. No, that doesn’t make it. I want something intensified. That idiot, calls people, boys homosexuals, just because they were found listening to music lying on a bed. And the way he trashes people… you’d be so totally “mesmerized”. You’d wonder how famous India would have become, if at all he participated in middle-weights!!!
Show me his palms not shaking, I’ll join off al-Queda, for sure!!!…
And because he annoys me, I do things to annoy him(of course, with him not knowin it’s me!). I’d not be alive writing this post, if at all he had any idea of where his missing permission pads would go. And forgot to mention this one thing!! We gotta get permission for US to go out. The first time he’d be like “No”. So you explain him why you have to go out. It’d be a big “NO”, again. Then if you really wanna go out, you’ll have to keep all your self-respect aside for the moment and BEG him to let you go. You might get a PROBABLE answer of “Yes”. If not, you suck at convincing people. Then after the princi guy leaves, you call your parents to let you go. With parents’ consent the warden guy (BOTTU), would leave you out. With a broad smile you step out. The next day, it’ll be awaiting ya!! The princi guy’s bashings!!… yeah, the bottu guy wouldn’t just let it go. It has to get to the princi guy’s notice, just because you’re not bottu’s fav!!! And the princi guy woulnt bang everyone. Not the toppers, not the ex-MLA’s son(sorry ra!), and not the “garabhanga penchina koduku”!!
Amongst all the crappy shit politics, the quest is to find the KEY TO HAPPINESS. And that being, just minding your own business.
P.S.: I so hate to put the logo up on this page 😐  Just to warn people! 😀

The best educational system yet. Yeah, satire.


Well. Here I am. Bitching more about the crappy system of Narayana like institutions.
As proposed, went to check out the options and details about the long term coaching. And as expected, they were real mean. “No, sorry. We can’t get him on board. We need students who have performed well in the previous exams.” I ask, what the heck would they do to people who’re already elevated? Use them to make money? Hell yeah. They’re no better mature than an average school kid. The only thing that’s changed is the greed the whole of the devil mind is directed to. Towards MONEY. The DEMON. The root of all the evils.
Abbe, understand our damn problem. My family can’t before another house here. They can’t direct half(more than half actually) of their attention towards me for yet another year. Sometimes, I wish life was a fairytale. It isn’t. Had some problem believing it. Not anymore. They ain’t no fools.
They have a huge mastermind behind the drama. Well I realised, this is how it works. The principle of their institutions.
What happened today was real annoying.
They have it so clear. All the institutions are different bodies. There’s no real relation between. The fee structure wouldn’t be the same everywhere. The rules wouldn’t be the same. Ask then about the other Narayana campus, “It’s their will. Depends on what they choose”. There’re nothing that’s relating one to the other.
Except. Except for the name. Yeah. The whole crap is individualistic. But for the success. The “ranks”(they seem to have an entire different picture of the ranks). The success though is shared with every campus. Thus making more money irrespective of where, or who owns the campus. Make an institute named Narayana. I’m sure there are enough number of fools who’d blindly come in to you!
And they feel like they’re on the top of the world. Well Narayana people, YOU ARE NOT.
As Praneeth Chilkalapudi says, jump in a glass of water and die.
And i’m no innocent face too. I’m the most guilty. If I did have a better performance, the life would’ve been much more simpler. So much more happier!

Done =]

Done with the BITSAT.

Feel Factor: Morning session, mine was. Was pretty cool(literally). All day long(the weather). Test, obviously lasted for three hours. 8.30AM to 11.30AM. Was user friendly. Not as expected. And all my plans of trashing their security measures to not allow a fake substituted candidate failed. MISERABLY! Not that I wanted to. Just that, that’s how my mind works. How to push the system astray. Sadistic mind!!! :p
And one thing I found amusing was, the picture they took at the center and the one in my hall permit card, they were so similar. So similar that my shirts matched too!!
Center: BITS Campus, Hyderabad.Was pretty far. Had a hard time driving the bike back home on the city streets. My left hand fingers still ache with the pain clutching the gears for hours!!! 


Score: 229

Less than expected. Cut off score is supposed to be around 280. Well, it’s beyond my reach. AT PRESENT. Don’t expect the situation to remain the same forever B). As Prasad sir says, the score you get by the end of this year is just an indicator of how much of effort you’ve put in.
And with the work that I’ve put in, not a bad score must say!… No, wait. This sounds more like self compromising. And it’d never lead us any better.
With this slipping out of my hands, the only choice I’m left with is NDA!!!
Work for that, or lose an year!! Doesn’t really matter actually! One year’s not a big deal.
But what I’m gonna lose is what many don’t seem to understand! An opportunity to get into the army at the earliest. Life’d be so awesome!! Go watch Pearl Harbor. Or why a movie, come to Picket, here in Hyderabad alone. All you can do looking at them, is but ADMIRE. DREAM. CRAVE FOR. ASPIRE!!!…(Okay, got no better word. Suggest me with better ideas!!!)
Being done with the mainstreams and having more than a month to go for the NDA examination, I’m clueless right now of what to do’s. And I’m sure gonna be so for a few more days.
Plans now?
Make a post on the recently “brake-opened” MCB. And play football! 🙂 And if possible Basketball!
And most importantly, the job of the day, for tomorrow is, go check the “long-term” options provided by the so called “educational institutions”, like Narayana, or Sri Chaitanya. What I believe is none of them would make any difference. They don’t anyways. All they do is, associate with a “winner”. Give an opportunity to the best. Bring out the “talent”??.. Nay, doen’t apply here!! 🙂
What perfectly makes sense is, bring out the “credit(cash kinda!)”. Okay. Too much of bitching of is bad. Yes. But anyways, I’ll soon bring out a lot. My mates here are with the same idealogies!!! 😀

Ranks and Cinema!

“Everything shows up now”, says Prasad sir, “horrible performance and your ranks”. Do we care? Yeah we do! Do we follow? For a while, er, yep!
Studying so hard we were, me and Mohan, that we wanted to take a break. A break from this vicious circle of stuffing our brains! So the consequence is, 100% Love, in Prasads! Oh wait, isn’t that the movie you always wanted to go?..hell yeah! I coveted my cousins going off to the movie!
I wish my exams were soon over. I’d never foreseen this situation! Know what? Went to a movie!
Yeah. 100% Love! The movie was kinda good.
The director seems to have 100% confidence on the title. But it’d honestly make more sense with 100% and Love! They’d been portrayed as two different things. Or maybe, I couldn’t make a connection. Story was pretty fine, while, the storyline seemed not that great. Tried making two distinct phases. Before and after the half. Before the half was a comedy, after the half, a serious flick! Couldn’t really manage well with that! SSC first, Inter first, EAMCET first, he, Naga Chaitanya, as Balu, will be high up in the air till this girl, MahaLakshmi, Tamanna, enters the scene! He finds himself troubled and in an awkward situation! The rest of the movie is his ego, and his career obsession. But by the end they somehow cover up the whole story, saying all the drama was for the love. This rather spoils the beauty of the movie!
I would, but say, it’s a good watch, ignoring some technical aspects and possibilities, which very rarely, a Telugu movie satisfies. It is a good watch, when you got enough time, and no EAMCET in the coming week!
All the very best people. For everyone, not just people writing the crappy EAMCET!..
All the best with you life!
Rating: ★★★☆☆